The Great Job Hunt

I have been searching and applying for jobs since the end of May and to be perfectly honest, even though that doesn't seem like a long time, to me it's felt like years. The days dragging on, doing the same old boring things everyday like going for walks, watching television, eating, sleeping, repeating this process over and over again made me kind of lose my sense of purpose in life. I am the type of person that only really functions well in very structured environments, like school. Except, because I am not at school and there isn't really a structure to my life right now, I am a little bit at a loss as to what I should do with my time. After being rejected from so many jobs, applying to so many places only to just never even hear back from them, it was, in a sense, very demoralizing. Without something to do, I didn't really have a purpose and if you're not careful that kind of environment can lead to some pretty dark place. Trust me, I've been there and I do not want to go back. Fortunately for me, my mom got me to start this blog so that I would have an actual reason to get up in the morning other the fact I was hungry and needed food or had to go to the bathroom or something. Do I feel as though I have more of a purpose now that I have started this blog? For the most part, yes, because it at least gives me something to do during the day other than lay around and watch YouTube videos. I say for the most part because, just like every other human being, I do have my down days where I don't feel like getting out of bed, despite now finally having purpose. But I must say that, even though these posts don't usually take very long to type, they do help me feel better in that by putting them out here I am not only helping myself, but perhaps others as well. And that's all I want. If my stories can help one kid feel better, or at least less alone, then I am satisfied. Thank you to everyone who reads this for helping me have a purpose. I hope that by writing this out, I have helped you in some way.